RadiantGloom

So I haven't been very active and I haven't been commenting or replying much if at all because I've been very busy. A few quick updates: I GRADUATED HIGH SCHOOL so that's pretty fucking cool if you ask meI spiraled into the abyss and actually crawled out this time somewhat. It wasn't easy it was like scraping up a pile of sentient sewer sludge with chopsticks and tbh there might still be a few bits that I missed but meepI REALIZED THE IMPORTANCE OF TELLING SOME PEOPLE HOW STUPID THEY ARE WHEN THEY'RE BEING STUPIDI ALSO REALIZED HOW MUCH I LOVE !Bubblemaster7 (https://www.deviantart.com/bubblemaster7) TBH I ALWAYS knew that but our dear Simon has apparently forgotten how much I L

    OMG THANK YOU TO EVERYONE WHO WISHED ME A HAPPY BIRTHDAY WHICH WAS LIKE 3 PEOPLE ON DA BUT THAT'S OKAY BECAUSE I LOVE YOU ALL REGARDLESS    I'M SO SORRY THAT I'M SO BACKED UP ON MESSAGES AND LIFE AND EVERYTHING, I'VE BEEN SO SWAMPED WITH SCHOOL WORK. THIS IS ONE OF THE FEW FREE MOMENTS THAT I HAVE TO TRY TO PIECE MY LIFE BACK TOGETHER.    Anyway, thank you guys. That really made my day. Literally all of my friends forgot except for one until my supervisor gave me a present in front of them halfway through the day. I feel so loved, truly -_- And then some of my friends saw my Snapchat story about all of the shit I got from my family an

So, my anxiety's getting worse. Like, a lot worse. I'm not in control anymore and it really sucks because I'm constantly freaking out and nobody really gets it because I only know like two other people with anxiety, and they've been working through it for years now so the stage they're at looks unattainable to me. Also, I turned my therapist down when she offered me meds, so they also have that as an advantage. I just feel like that unappealing muck that someone spilled on the filthy sidewalk of a busy downtown street, because my feelings about my anxiety have been making me feel more depressed recently and it just makes me feel gross. I als